tristia subrosa;

i'll meet you halfway;

2011-12-14T22:00:00.001-05:00

.

funny how we always
remember when &
want years to end.

it's not rocket science;

2011-08-21T16:00:00.001-04:00

.

the light which shines in the eye
is really the light of the heart. (rumi)

dialogue;

2011-07-12T22:30:00.001-04:00

between head and heart
your woven tangles
bridge a divide —

you let a full breath out
through the tip of your toe.

behind your eyes
a thousand oceans
carry on with grace.

when has your intuition
ever failed you?

.

two means yes;

2011-07-11T21:30:00.002-04:00

.

(these will be made available in limited edition prints
via the latest release of the aural diptych series;
electroluminescent/giant claw — on tqa records.)

sihr;

2011-07-10T00:00:00.001-04:00

.

i play a really awful damsel in distress (all of the shhh's, self-reliance sublime!);
i wish i knew telepaths with those eyes.
i wish there were more telepaths in my life.

what compels one to turn/move forward?
full circle, point A+ back to A —
sihr.

confluences;

2011-06-16T19:29:00.002-04:00

Points de rencontre entre l'essence humaine et la nature certaine, moments suspendus à tout hasard, jonctions limitrophes. Par le biais de diptyques, cette série de photos récentes par Meryem Yildiz explore les jeux de confluences et fixe les ellipses qui s'y rattachent.

Confluences : exposition solo de photographies par Meryem Yildiz (du 27 juin au 26 juillet 2011)

Vernissage : 30 juin 2011, 18h à 22h

Meeting points between human essence and essential nature, haphazard moments suspended, liminal junctions. Through diptychs, this series of recent photographs explores confluent states and their related ellipses.

Confluences: Solo Photography Exhibit by Meryem Yildiz (June 27 - July 26 2011)

Opening: June 30th, 6PM to 10PM

Café Pi Gallery
4127 Saint-Laurent
Montreal, QC H2W 1Y7

gone sailing;

2011-06-12T13:00:00.000-04:00

(strangers are only strange until you get to know them.)

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spring scene;

2011-05-15T14:00:00.003-04:00

tilted;

2011-05-14T19:30:00.001-04:00

methodical: writhing — writing — righting.

.

"every soul is interwoven before the wrong or right;
i know we'll live again, though it's just a feeling."

(swans saturn day.)

two lips at night;

2011-05-13T23:00:00.001-04:00

two lips at night, tuliping.

because she cannot remember
the last time her arms
trembled like this.

.

this situation is acceptable to her. she talks about it with surprising comfort, balance and poise. it makes sense to her at this moment in time. it is by no means normal. in fact, there is barely anything happening at all. it follows the same slow, deciding pace that followed them. & for some strange, cosmic reason, it feels like it should be this way.

"he told me i had beautiful shoulders. that he had never seen shoulders as wide as mine," she said to the voodoo artist.

"yes, but it's as though you let in an entire breath, and you never let it out," he responded.

he pressed his hands against her ribcage.

"what happened here?" he asked.

"nothing," she said.

the nafs at peace;

2011-03-30T22:30:00.000-04:00

marrow;

2011-02-02T23:30:00.001-05:00

little boy blue;

2011-01-24T22:30:00.001-05:00

burden of proof;

2010-11-21T16:00:00.000-05:00

thermal latency;

2010-11-10T21:30:00.002-05:00

hiding things away, as john lennon would; it is a form of hibernation. there is always the earth to cover the earth. and there are waiting rooms and you, waiting in them. waiting rooms for you to conjure wings before the ground gets cold.

revolving doors;

2010-11-08T21:30:00.002-05:00

zehra, sabrien melahat, tekinhan.

and a petra in a petri dish of moon and honey.

all it takes, ultimately, is for the doorbell to ring. who knew it were so simple. one finger pressed on the white button floating amidst the river spider webs. and dusty moths plucked from the willing retinas of diplomats.

hi, hello, you greet (summon). my visit is as such. there are many doors. i found this one suitable for these purposes, precious and warranted. incongruent melting; landmark points. paternal bewilderment, anger and subsequent acceptance. and then: the "and then" not so fortuitous, but calculated, strong and perfectly in tune with princesses of the naught kind.

your lips of vapour, the neck and tremors, petal cuts on the jugulars.

waiting for the snow to fall;

2010-11-03T20:30:00.002-04:00

.

commissioned for the ADS04.

(only 11 left!)

demyelination;

2010-10-06T22:30:00.000-04:00

redemptive scales;

2010-10-05T17:00:00.000-04:00

s'envole; tombe des nues; s'enlise; s'abrite; s'en tire; s'exhausse.

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retention loss;

2010-10-01T00:00:00.006-04:00

(with incense
at your feet)

let the lines unfold,
envelop,
discuss,
and recreate.

.

life transmission;

2010-09-20T21:30:00.000-04:00

.

i reckon you need
yellow street signs
to command and
concur.

.

the sun looked orange
on the leaves waiting to fall.

you begged for reassurance.

a star bruise in the sky,
all terror and wonder.

second skin;

2010-08-23T22:00:00.002-04:00

.

tug o' wars, layers to peel, words to say, feelings to feel.

when fate and trust in life coincide with the now.
when the way is supposed to be this way.

(one full moon on the 24th.
one person to solve an enigma.
& the second half
of august waning.)

chiefly yours / cheekily mine;

2010-08-16T23:00:00.001-04:00

i like to keep seashells in my purse, tokens of the ocean, gifts from the womb made of curls and of spirals, seashell reminders of the coast, the edges, the liminal so close, the coast and la haute mer and your tip of the toes pointed, body in a crescent moon, curved inward and downward, forward, plunged, but no more than a pen, carving eulogies on your chest and on your back, with lights so dim, a canvas so blank, and skin smooth as scales but without reflection.

you win hearts;

2010-07-13T17:30:00.000-04:00

(the elika diptych, featured in this lovely package.)

.

for whom the hands turn;

2010-06-24T15:00:00.001-04:00

retrait essentiel;

2010-06-01T23:30:00.000-04:00

table manners;

2010-05-05T23:30:00.000-04:00

mais encore;

2010-04-20T20:00:00.001-04:00

je ressens toujours la fatigue sous les yeux en premier,
comme si mes joues tiraient sur mes paupières,
implorant qu'elles se ferment enfin.

.

le langage secret des toubibs;

2010-04-17T23:00:00.000-04:00

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dream: approached, planted, decamped.
spontaneously sang break on through.
woke up on the other side, of course.

variante mitotique;

2010-04-07T00:00:00.000-04:00

quilt/hoefizer;

2010-04-05T21:00:00.000-04:00

commissioned for tqa records's quilt/hoefizer split release.

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rebecca;

2010-04-05T09:00:00.000-04:00

posture et appropriation;

2010-03-10T19:00:00.001-05:00

prospect or expectation;

2010-03-01T21:00:00.000-05:00

présage;

2010-02-22T21:30:00.000-05:00

you are free;

2010-02-10T22:30:00.000-05:00

des aquariums et des os;

2010-02-01T21:00:00.000-05:00

appel à la terre;

2010-01-28T22:30:00.001-05:00

.

succedaneum

it is dark outside, like the rain
the soft rain in january,
stripping the snow of its white.

there is a loophole somewhere,
with the rain and with the right,
a loophole or a noose,
your pick.

i am the womb in your pillow,
i gather your dust and save it
for a sunny day; if i blow softly
in a ray we can pretend it is gold.

but we let our bodies fade into masses
and i haven't weathered the dough.

wall (hitting a) / stonewalling;

2010-01-19T22:30:00.001-05:00

three avocados and a handful of satin;

2010-01-14T22:30:00.000-05:00

.

(à l'heure féconde on oublie ton nom.)

ton faux-semblant à la gorge est émoussé
tu n'as jamais vraiment sû te servir des lames

oil & water;

2010-01-06T10:30:00.001-05:00

every morning is the day's micro new year.

quatre souhaits.
deux bises sur les joues.
trois poignées de main.

we should wish us well, every day.

.

interstice;

2009-12-21T15:00:00.001-05:00

the empty/full dichotomy takes part in all visual art. emptiness introduces an active discontinuity which allows for a complex organisation of visual elements, thereby facilitating interpenetration and internalization. the outgrowth of a piece into space, either through diptychs or panoramas, amplifies the structure of emptiness. classical composition rules no longer apply; the parts engage in a new dialogue that is revealed by a void where, seemingly, nothing happens. symbolically, emptiness becomes a code with underlying meaning, an ambiguous code leading to multiple interpretations.

january 7th - january 31st 2010
at the ottawa school of art
35 george st, ottawa, canada

la dichotomie vide/plein participe à toute forme d’art visuel. le vide introduit une discontinuité active qui permet aux éléments de s’organiser de façon complexe. il en facilite l’interpénétration et l’intériorisation. l’éclatement de l’œuvre dans l’espace, sous forme de diptyque ou de panorama, exacerbe la place du vide. les règles classiques de la composition cessent de s’appliquer; un autre dialogue s’engage entre les parties de l’œuvre, médiatisé par des zones où, en apparence, rien ne se passe. au plan symbolique, le vide devient un code qui sous-tend le sens de l’œuvre, un code ambigu menant à des interprétations multiples.

du 7 janvier au 31 janvier 2010
à l'école d'art d'ottawa
35 rue george, ottawa, canada

vie de famille;

2009-12-15T09:30:00.000-05:00

carbone et moi.

.

marine élémentaire;

2009-11-25T11:30:00.000-05:00

anterograde amnesia;

2009-11-17T09:30:00.001-05:00

.

(& sadly go round,
& sadly go round.)

counting the years, we recount them. we put a youth to our mouth, we mend the hearts, we warm up to dots, we craddle waves, vaguely. with every year, new youth, old hearts, periods aligned wistfully and strung along the same skies. we all know about the januaries, the junes. i cut in half all my beginnings, all my beginnings begging to end.

(from the blood spilt on my chest,
to your fingertipped nose:
this goodbye was without a word.)

breaking nails & status quos;

2009-11-10T10:30:00.000-05:00

dorothy;

2009-11-09T10:30:00.001-05:00

reccuringly,
but not clock-wise,
i ask you how it is
under the sun.

i see shadows on the ceiling,
but the setting always comes
too soon.

.

décover;

2009-11-02T12:30:00.000-05:00

i am featured in this month's décover magazine!

you can pick up your free copy at the following locations,
starting november 4th and onward.

.

hortus econtra;

2009-10-21T12:00:00.000-04:00

suspended animation;

2009-10-19T15:00:00.001-04:00

hibernation/electric love.

.

ελπίδα στο χάος;

2009-10-18T17:30:00.000-04:00

pour k.,
all my love on this day (of you)
& all of the days to come
just close your eyes

.

one ticket to the sea;

2009-10-14T00:00:00.001-04:00

contemplation des minutes
avant la grande plongée sous-maligne.

.

pixels and caffeine | caféine et pixels;

2009-09-22T13:00:00.002-04:00

in collaboration with les journées de la culture, you are invited get your portrait taken by me on saturday september 26th at la maison de la torréfaction, a tiny little café located at 412 gilford, in montreal. i will be there from 11am to 5pm.

.

dans le cadre des journées de la culture, vous êtes invités à venir vous faire photographier par moi le samedi 26 septembre à la maison de la torréfaction, un petit café situé au 412 gilford, à montréal. j'y serai de 11h à 17h.

phantom voltage;

2009-09-21T11:00:00.000-04:00

late(r) summer;

2009-09-14T17:00:00.000-04:00

& so it is that
with autumn comes
a thin film of dry
sheated around
the throat.

.

anatomie féminine:

la mer rouge,
(ou mare internum)
les eaux de verre,
le thé russe,
les trompes de salope.

anaphylaxis: against protection;

2009-09-01T12:00:00.000-04:00

anaphylaxis:

an acute systemic and severe allergic reaction in humans and other mammals.
the term comes from the greek ανα ana (against) & φύλαξις phylaxis (protection).

.

you have beaten on strange
walls with the paper weights
wrapped around your severed
lungs

spun, spun

with words of the psychic
stabbing wounds at the bones

my feet linger with every
tip of the toe and my lips
are chips of stone
trickling at the sight

against protection
but not without

the angel's darling needle;

2009-08-22T10:00:00.001-04:00

couples are wholes and not wholes,
what agrees disagrees, the concordant is discordant.

from all things one and from one all things.

(herakleitos)

.

l'usufruitière;

2009-07-23T09:30:00.000-04:00

24 secrets in the water;

2009-07-20T09:00:00.000-04:00

i treat my friends to love and to mason jars.

.

les temps transparents;

2009-07-18T00:00:00.002-04:00

ephemeroptera: dyadic incantations;

2009-07-14T12:00:00.005-04:00

come one, come all.

.

meryem yildiz et annie stephens présentent, dans le cadre des soirées cheap as candy, ephemeroptera: incantations dyadiques.

telle la vie des éphémères et pour un soir seulement, venez observer les photographies dûment choisies d'annie et de meryem: une double proposition dans un nid d'énigmes magnétiques et de mystique transitoire. l'évènement délectera vos yeux, mais aussi vos sens, car vous serez invités à céder à vos caprices ou peut-être même à vous confesser...

le collectif m-theory interprétera des pièces jazz sur scène, suivi du dj hunky dory, dont les mélodies s'harmoniseront à l'ambiance de la soirée.

joignez-vous à nous pour cette occasion exceptionnelle le jeudi 30 juillet au syndrome, 5777 st-laurent, coin bernard. l'exposition se tiendra de 22h à 3h.

(& les dipsomanes seront gâtées: la bière en fût est à 1,50$ et les shooters à 2$!)

événement facebook: ici

annie stephens & meryem yildiz, in collaboration with cheap as candy thursdays, present ephemeroptera: dyadic incantations.

akin to the lifespan of mayflies, and for a single night only, come peruse carefully chosen photographs by meryem & annie: a dual proposition in a nook of magnetic enigmas and ephemeral mystique. the event is a feast for the eyes, but also for the senses, as you are invited to indulge in peculiar whims or even to confess...

the m-theory collective will perform live jazz pieces, followed by dj hunky dory, whose melodies will befit the mood for the rest of the evening.

come join us for this exceptional occasion on thursday july 30th at syndrome, 5777 st-laurent, corner of bernard. the exhibit will begin at 10pm and will last until 3am.

(& lushes will be pleased: beer on tap is $1.50 & shots are just $2!)

facebook event: here

please send more yellow birds;

2009-07-04T17:00:00.000-04:00

à la mer;

2009-06-18T09:00:00.000-04:00

.

à la mer,

on a l'écume aux lèvres
et le sel au creux des yeux.

parachute drop;

2009-05-27T23:30:00.000-04:00

.

if you cannot see it,
it is not because you are blind,
but because you are right.

switching hungers;

2009-05-27T00:30:00.001-04:00

.

pinching red the thinest skin on my wrist
is the only way to be chiefly aware
of the line between the is and is not.

petits goûts;

2009-04-29T10:00:00.002-04:00

i blew a hint, a feather passed;
like months, it was stitched.

now, now i look very deep inside the well. i wonder about the many seeds i have thrown to perdition. inside - in daturas, in mentzelias, in ipomoeas - the blooming of my will. they are arcane motes; specks in the dusk, with hearts in the heart of all hearts.

i kept, and i will keep seeing you,
long after the eyelids fall.

pure, but not from concentrated.

light in & light out. an unrelenting strobe, or a scope. toes & the tons they carry. i could be one with the earth, but i am 12 floors above the ground. les voix qui s'élèvent ne sont pas les miennes; elles sont méconnues et pourtant s'harmonisent à la lumière. i am in the midst of it. all the years ago & all the years to come. no noise for this quiet, no quiet for this noise. in my cochlear pool i swim, i travel distances.

for you, to rest.

my chin against my knees.

interpretations;

2009-04-09T14:30:00.000-04:00

the breathing forest

death of a sailor

the great escapist

stranger than the sea

.

posters/postcards i made for thisquietarmy,
to be sold on his upcoming european tour.

angina pectoris;

2009-04-07T13:00:00.001-04:00

one red apple - my heart.

& despite the weight on my chest
my heart still beats with the most distant stars.

(nazim hikmet)

.

le lit de la mer | la mer dans son lit;

2009-03-30T11:00:00.000-04:00

.

mon mal de tête
n'est plus

les voiliers s'envolent
mes cerfs-volants
du pacifique acceptent
l'invitation au sommeil
l'invitation à la nausée

au mal de mer

mais les grands me guideront
loin je le sais

parole céleste
des pêcheurs à sec

.

cocotte, où te caches-tu?

2009-03-25T09:00:00.000-04:00

il importe parfois de réiterer les banalités les plus banales.

"on fait ce qu'on peut avec qu'on a."
"ainsi va la vie qui va."
"c'est la vie."

ah la vie.

il importe aussi de ne pas sombrer dans la fatalité.

"on fait ce qu'on peut avec qu'on a, mais on cherche à avoir plus."
"ainsi la vie qui va, mais elle a le hoquet."
"c'est la mort."

ah la la.

.

tay al-ard;

2009-03-23T10:00:00.002-04:00

i've got my reveries
all pinned up & ready

.

there are many ways to stay alive;

2009-03-18T11:30:00.001-04:00

cheekbones will keep the creases close under my eyes,
kitting, kidding kitten-style, flying knotty kites whatnot.

.

skies real or imagined;

2009-03-17T11:00:00.000-04:00

i don't know what's up there beyond the sky
it's been a long, a long time coming
but i know a change gonna come,
oh yes it will

.

dreams static dreams;

2009-03-15T15:00:00.000-04:00

the ties that bind;

2009-03-13T10:00:00.000-04:00

i do not wish to undo
what has been spoken
very quietly i have said
all senses i felt with
fingers for the binds
tying me in pulling
my hands to a world
with meaning without
tailspin nor
end

.

bloody nose;

2009-03-10T22:30:00.002-04:00

i bleed all over
in dreams i lose my mind,
but not my heart.

beyond the words, there is a body
i should not have to remind.

fingers, nails, lips, breath.

this desperate urgency
for the acknowledgment
of my shell: discuss.

what have i been relegated to?

my bloody nose,
in dreams and in mares;
the words sliding across
my body, the words
drifting on the very curves
of your forgetting.

.

know your luck | inside & out;

2009-03-08T22:24:00.000-04:00

there is no sleep,
only different states of consciousness.

there is no comfort in forced stasis,
only pathless static.

firefly.

.

when you sleep (it's so quiet);

2009-03-01T20:00:00.000-05:00

the bones of unletting;

2009-02-10T21:00:00.000-05:00

que signifie continuer d'être
dans la venelle de la mort?

dans le vaste désert du sel
comment fleurir est-il possible?

dans la mer du rien-ne-se-passe
trouve-t-on tenue pour mourir?

lorsque les os s'en sont allés,
qui vit dans l'ultime poussière?

(neruda)

.

in the blink of a wing;

2009-01-28T23:00:00.000-05:00

& & &

.

l'étoile et la mer;

2009-01-26T10:45:00.000-05:00

pour toutes les petites courbes
de la conjonction

.

soit;

2009-01-19T00:45:00.001-05:00

ces mains ont trois ans,
quatre peut-être.

.

my end of week was about infuriated anti-fur patrons & missing teeth whateverers & the wise suggestion that you make up your own nick of the name and then, of course it came. cloudheaded i drink up your spirits, ghosts and faithful asunder wanderers. l'histoire des grands bonjours et the long goodbyes, je la raconte en quelques nuits. see, i know my way to midnight. i know the way. i've always known the way.

the strangest twist;

2009-01-11T02:45:00.000-05:00

"kiss me goodbye" pushing out before i sleep
it's lower now and slower now the strangest
twist upon your lips but i don't see and i don't
feel but tightly hold up silently my hands
before my fading eyes and in my eyes your
smile the very last thing before i go...

.

dermoglyphes;

2009-01-08T22:45:00.000-05:00

.

under the skin, there is a second song.
notes in parallel, or in opposites.

we scald the self in search of these.

cut, cut, cut;

2009-01-07T14:00:00.000-05:00

j'ai ce grand château thoracique dans lequel brillent au noir mes milliers d'arrêtes. parfois j'y récupère les écailles de ta peau que j'avale au son de mes lèvres et je les dépose une à une dans la petite vallée afin de me protéger du froid. je deviens la sirène des deux monts sous la glace. viens pêcher; tu n'as pas coupé tes ongles depuis. mêmes les grands fictifs s'adonnent aux caprices compulsifs. il suffit de découper pour voir le ciel sous la nappe des eaux figées. et mes yeux s'ouvrent à la soif de la lumière.